Excess and Illusion
I was over at a friends yesterday and she is finally online from her apartment.…
I recently took a “normal” job, whatever that may actually be, I think of it as a place that pays me on a regular basis for some function that they have need of. I am still in training on the job and am feeling pretty good about it, but the one part of it that is going to take a while to get used to is getting up so early.
As an independent contractor, I could get up whenever I wanted, usually around 7 and take my time getting myself together. With the hours that I am doing during training and likely to continue doing on a regular basis, I could sleep as late as 6, but that leaves me little time for the more important aspects of my morning, meditation.
That’s actually what this entry is going to be about I think.
Lately, my meditations have been very interesting, not so much for what has been happening, but for what has not.
I tend to start my meditations with a creation of some sacred space and then do a breath channeling through my chakras. It helps me to relax and to place myself into an alternate state of mind.
One of the things that I have noticed about myself is that I get to a certain point and because of previous experiences, I try to “force” myself into a certain state. I’m not real sure how to describe it, but I get to a point where I feel as if I am leaving the body through the crown chakra and from there I can go anywhere.
I guess the part that has been interesting to me has been the recent experiences where I get to the threshold of “stepping out” and basically get stuck. I have found that meditation is a lot like my life in that it works best when I just let it happen and don’t attempt to force things.
When I just relax and let my meditation happen, I get deeper than when I do otherwise. I know this is a pretty “duh” statement for many people and to be honest, it is for me as well. But we all sometimes get so far from where we started that it is sometimes helpful to remember those early lessons and see what other interesting and new insights we can glean from them.
The image above is one that I use to remind me of the images and colors of the chakras. The base or root chakra is associated with the color red and so forth through the colors and chakras till you reach the third eye which is purple. The crown merges all the colors together for a brilliant white.
Beyond those basics of chakra work, the image also incorporates the traditional lotus designs as well as the Sanskrit characters for more advanced students. I am trying to find an old graphic editing program I had that will allow me to slow the rate of the animation changes.
I recently had a discussion with someone and the ideas of meditation vs prayer came up. Those who know me know that I don’t use the term “prayer” very often. The reason is that when I was young, prayer always seemed like a negotiation with God for what we felt was some blessing that we deserved.
Now days I usually phrase it more along the lines of “prayer is when I talk to God or my Higher Power, meditation is when I shut up and listen for the response.”
After years of study of teachers and saints from religions spanning time and this planet, I can tell you that the teachers all tell us that the answers are not outside of ourselves, but within. This is because we are all small sparks of the Creator and can not be separated from that Source.
As the “Course in Miracles” puts so eloquently, God does not judge the minutia of our day-to-day lives but only that which is deserving of judgment, the mistake that we fell into of believing that we were separate from Him and could fall. Everything else is just that delusion playing itself out.
The law of Karma and Newton’s Second Law of Motion state, for every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction. All these “sins” we worry so much about are nothing because they only exist in a state of illusion, they are not real. Only that which is real matters and you would be amazed at how much is not real. Like that book titled, “Don’t Sweat the Small Stuff: it’s all small stuff,” when we put things into perspective we can let go of that load we carry around in the name of guilt.
OK, I will quit rattling about and go get some sleep. I have a busy day at work and I have more than enough here for you to think about.